Trial by Fire

The heavens shed it’s tears
For the one who walks the fire
She who had given up
A life of luxuries and wealth
Save for her clinquant smile
That lit up forests and hearts alike.
Her loyalty tested twice
By a man held so wise
Her beloved she followed
Through rain and cold.
A single tear escapes her eyes
As she leaves her world behind.
The wheels of time have turned
Modern times we call it, yet
The heavens shed it’s tears
For the one who walks the fire
She who is punished
For the sin of love.
Her loyalty tested time and again
By the beloved who sets her on fire.
Tears fall unbridled as she begs and screams,
Trial by fire has become the norm.

©GauriCS

Poison of Choice

Love like wine is never the same,
With the bottle changes the flavour,
Each a poison of its own brand
Spreading slowly across your soul
Drenching you in its potency
Leaving trails of feelings and memories
As the nasha lifts and sobriety returns.
Yet we persist in our search
For new bottles and new poisons
In the wake of our wanderings through the realms
Missing the sparks of light
That burst forth from within
Like a deer in search of musk.

©GauriCS

Loneliness

I clutch my mantle of loneliness closer than ever
As I walk through these deserted roads made of
Half-dreamt dreams and forsaken conversations
A path etched in my nocturnal sauntering
Faces long forgotten emerge from the darkness
Prodding corpses buried deep in the earth
Which bloom at the slightest touch
Like fungi sprouting from the dampened scapes of my memory
Bones exposed, rotten yet animated and full of spite
They clutch at my ankles as I tread barefoot
These marshy lands that try to embrace me
Sing me lullabies and lay me down to sleep
Swaddled in my loneliness like a newborn babe
Oblivion, the ever eluding elixir, denied yet again
Will this sleep never end?

©GauriCS

Ethereal Vision

The tinkling of bells remind me of your laughter
As you hide your face behind your palm
Tears streaming down your cheeks
And you clutch my arm to steady yourself
Unaware of your nails leaving marks on my skin,
The way you’d run towards me excited
Launching yourself into my arms
Giving me a fierce hug,
The way your eyes light up with passion
And shyness gives way to endless conversations
Always ready to debate and discuss
Always ready to learn,
The childishness that bursts out in rare moments
Thieving food from my share,
The way you sleep next to me blissfully unaware
An angelic face.
The tinkling of bells remind me
That you were never there,
Only in my head
An ethereal vision
Beyond mundane life.

©GauriCS

Unsure

What would you do
When the pain hits you
Hard and square
Striking the part of you
That you thought you’d kept safe?
Your safe haven
Where you reclaimed
A once lost joy,
The deepest parts of your soul
You’d kept a secret from
The demon inside your head.
Tell me what would you do
When your eyes fill with unshed love
Which the world named grief.
What would you do
When you feel lost in crowds
And loneliness alike,
One indistinguishable from the other?
What would you do
When you know not who you are
Or what awaits you?

©GauriCS

Apocalypse 2.0

The World Ends Today!
I fold the newspaper
Headline still screaming at me
And sit sipping my chai.
The world is ending
Yet I do not feel a thing.
Why would another end matter
To one already dead inside?
A wail starts at one end of the street
And is taken up by the rest
I go into the house unperturbed
And decide to make most of the day.
A long bath with the lavender salts
Gifted on my birthday
And a glass of wine later
Here I am in the cute white dress
With polka dots and lace
Fresh faced and ready to go out.
I grab a bar of chocolate and head out
Carefully locking the door behind me
(Some habits are hard to rid).
The streets are busy with people
Screaming and shouting
And running about wildly
I pay no heed to the
Obscenities screamed at my face
And walk away far from the maddening crowd.
The destination has always been the same,
There’s only one path I’d take
My footsteps imprinted on the little clearing
That leads down to the sea.
My little coven, my paradise
This little piece of ocean that is mine.
Alone as always I walk the shore
Playing tag with the waves
Onlooked by curious birds
Till they decide to join me.
No hunger, no thirst
I pick seashells on the shore.
As the sky pinks and sun sinks
I return home with my newfound collection.
The streets are empty but littered
Fires going out,
I see my house left untouched and go inside.
I slip into the bed
Swaddled by my sheets
And drift off into oblivion.

©GauriCS

Sweet Ache

You are the sweet ache in my bones
As I spent yet another night
Dancing under the night sky
The stars witness the passion
As the story of love unfolds
With every curve and sway
I etch on the darkness.
The ethereal sounds of Visions of Giddeon
Floating through the wind.
The sweat flows down
To join the tears
In my ocean of love
Boundless and deep
Fed by the ghosts of
Unkept words and spurned love,
Desire, the poison in my waters,
Spreads like the smile on your face
Unbridled, unasked and unreturned.
I lay under this sky
Spent and aching
Waiting for the rain
Which might never arrive.

©GauriCS

Art

I am but a slave to my art
Unable to resist the call of my heart
Pagans and passions,
Poisons of my choice.
I slice my mind
And let the words bleed
Seeping into my being
Colouring me black
Like the ink running through my veins.
Constraint I know not,
Neither does my honesty.
I lie on the pages
Naked, frailties exposed
Asking to be loved
For my flaws than my rarity.
Tell me you stranger,
If I look into your eyes
Will I see pity or fear
Or throes of fire?

©GauriCS

Smothered

Voices shouting, hair splitting screams
Broken bottles, spewing curses
Chaos reigns.
Words choke in my throat
Their escape smothered
By the hand on my windpipe.
My nails break off as they
Claw their way into my opponent’s skin
Drawing blood which tinges the air
The copper taste lingering in each struggled breath.
Tear tracks dig twin channels
Across my face
As I sit by the ocean
Listening to the waves crashing on the rocks.
I feel an overwhelming desire
To hurt myself to hurt no more
If at all that makes any sense.
A pain to mask another pain,
A pain to stop the suffering.
A pain to stop the journey
Before quarter of the distance covered.
Truth and time blurring
As I flit in and out
Of this consciousness
Unsure of how I act.

©GauriCS

A River Apart

On the either banks of the river we stand
Two souls facing each other
The moonlight playing on our lips
Smiles glowing in the dark
Faces recognized from distant past
Eons seeming like minutes
Life rushing past with the current
We wave our hands and shout
Words lost in the roar of the river
Styx or Lethe, I know not,
Immortality or Oblivion
Are punishments equal I guess.
Hesitant to take the jump
I stand and watch
As do you.

©GauriCS